I am SO Broke

Like, actually broke. Not one of those people who has a couple hundred dollars in their bank account yet insist they can't afford to go out (who know who you are..). I actually have negative dollars. Well, no. I have about $50 bucks in my bank account, but I owe a couple hundred bucks on my credit card (they're convenient but so so evil).

I got a $50 e-gift card for Christmas to Forever 21 and it has been burning a hole in my pocket (well, my inbox). I've been looking at their website and just waiting for things to deem worthy of buying and I FINALLY used it today. I bought no pants or shorts because I'm still in the "omg-I'm-so-fat-nothing-will-fit-me-why-kid-myself" mindset. Especially since today I tried on my "fat shorts" and they were too tight. So I played it safe and bought skirts (with adjustable waists) and a t-shirt with a tiger on it.

I also bought a gym membership at the university's gym. Since Sean's sister is a student, we get a discount and it is only costing us $55 for the entire year! We've been going pretty much everyday. We didn't go yesterday because we were busy and today it was so gorgeous outside so we opted for a bike ride instead. I wish we could've rode longer but the bike seat was too small for Sean and it hurt his ass. I'm not really noticing a difference yet but I've been so busy lately that I haven't had a chance to really change my eating patterns yet.

All this week I've been living at my aunt's house because she and my uncle are in Mexico and I'm babysitting my cousins. Then next week I'll be in Niagara Falls for a work training that I'm really really dreading but I just wish it would hurry up so I can get it over with.

It makes no sense to me. I'm working at a travel information centre for Windsor and ONLY Windsor, yet my training is 4 hours away in Niagara Falls. AND I don't start the job till mid July .. ?!!? They're just wasting their money, if you ask me.

I'm starving and I'm not in the greatest mood so I'm having pasta.. with extra cheese! Hmph. Good night.

Start of Summer Vacation

This might turn out to be a super long post. You have been warned.

I am now HOME! And home for GOOD! I finished my first year of college (with all passing grades, thank you) and I got home this past Thursday.

Good Friday was spent at my Uncle's out in Essex celebrating Easter with my mom's family. My brother bought me a bunny hat so I wore it on our drive over there and then had everyone have their turn taking a picture in the hat. It was fun, especially when we made my uncle pose in it :)

Oh, and yes, that is my REAL hair. I've been growing it out for probably over a year now and it's a real hassle to keep maintained but very pretty curled! I haven't decided when I'll cut it yet.

I got home Thursday evening and I've been non-stop since I got home. All I want to do is be by myself and sleep and empty my room (because I'm redoing it next month!) but there is just so much to do and everyone keeps wanting to together together now that I'm home and I'm just stressed way out! Today (technically yesterday) I didn't have a good day. I've been trying to make myself into a morning person and only allowing myself 9 hours of sleep (when I normally get close to 11 hours) and I think that, combined with being a busy bee, has really taken a toll on me. I snapped at Sean a little more than usual today so I told him once Easter is over to just let me be for a day or two.

Before Sean I was alone A LOT. I rarely went out, I hardly ever hung out with friends or went to parties and it sounds sad but that just the way I like it. I prefer to stay in and wear my jammies. I like the quiet and relaxation. And sometimes I just like being alone! I know i can't be alone on this.

So Monday I plan to spent just ignoring the outside world and spend my day cleaning out my room and hopefully doing a full detox that incorporates a little fen shui (is that right? you know what i mean..).

How weird is it that I only ever seem to blog at 3 or 4am? I know I had said I was trying to be a morning person but tomorrow is Easter and I want to sleep in, so tonight I did what relaxes me most and that is, currently, read wedding blogs. And I have no free time during the day.

OH! Also, I got the summer job I wanted at the Travel Info center! Woohoo! A whole lot of air conditioning and not a whole lot of customers. Complete opposite of McDonalds is exactly what I was looking for! :) The only thing I don't want to do is the training which is in Niagara Falls for a whole week! No thank you...

I think I'll go to bed now, though. Or make a sandwich. Either way, this is ending. Happy Easter.

Random 4am thoughts

I'm obsessed with wedding blogs and planning my future wedding. I already have my guest list. Seriously.

I want my Save The Date to be a video. Possibly stop motion. And I want an Ingrid Michaelson song to be playing. I'll put them on a DVD and mail them to people far away (like guests from Toronto) but others I will hand deliver (mainly because I think the price of postage is cray-zay and I have this vision of mail people literally throwing around our precious mail).

I have a heeee-uge folder (and folders within folders) of wedding idea photos. Once I get a printer (which will hopefully be this summer) I plan to make a wedding binder. I already bought the binder.

I have exam #3 at 8am tomorrow. I haven't studied. I didn't study for exam #2 and I got a 90%.

Time for bed. Good night. Or, good morning.. -ish. Just, bye.

Ps - website statistics show that most people find my blog from googling "duck lips". A little weird but mostly really awesome.

HEY! I'm vlogging here

Why am I most inspired to accomplish things at absurd hours?

If you know me well, which many really don't, you would know that everyday I watch the Shaytards. It's easily my favourite tv show at the moment, and it's not even a tv show (and I'm one of the fortunate to discover this family before the vlogs even started, probably because I've been addicted to youtube since 2006). If your life is unfortunate and you've never heard of the Shaytards, it's basically a family from Idaho that makes daily vlogs. I'm not really making it sound like much, but nonetheless, I suggest checking it out. It brings me daily happiness.

So as I watch the Shaytards videos and random tributes, I can't help but wish that my parents did a daily vlog like Shay. They have everything on film (or, well, it's digital but you get the idea). They have Sontards first visit from the Tooth Fairy, Rocktards first crawl and birth, and you can just see how the kids grow and find their own personality.

I made a montage video for my mom to Taylor Swift's song Never Grow Up, and as I was getting clips from all our old home video VHS tapes, I couldn't help but notice that there really wasn't much selection. There were several factors though.
The major one is that in today's day and age, video cameras are extremely compact and accessible, I have a great video camera on my cellphone! The camera used to capture my childhood was the size of a small child. You couldn't hold it for too long or your shoulder would start to cramp. And if you were like my grandmother, you would have to close your left eye just to see through the pinhole with your right.
Another reason, though, is that I would watch these videos over and over and over when I was younger and when I would take the VHS from the VCR I would leave it laying around. I remembering watching my birth, my first Christmas and several from when I was a little bit older that I can not find for the life of me. My brother went through this phase where he tried to transform our basement into his little mancave, and doing so, put all our childhood VHS (including my favourite, The Little Mermaid) into a rubber-made box and put them in our basement's cellar. Needless to say, many were ruined and lost during his stupid feng shui act.
I wish I knew where these old tapes were. They've got to be SOMEWHERE in our house or in our garage. It's a summer to-do for me to find the missing tapes.

When I'm older, I doubt I'll do a daily vlog (I'm not good with keeping up with something like that, I'm busy and forgetful), BUT I will film as much as I remember to. I also want a good camera to film with. It really makes me sad when parents don't take pictures of their children often, and when they do they use a cellphone. The quality is awful and cellphones pictures, at least with me, are often lost. They will regret it, I guarantee.

Anywayssssss, good thing I don't have my first class till 2pm tomorrow! I'm going to bed, 5am is starting to creep up on me. Good night!

Oh.. whoops!

I am the worst blogger in the history of bloggers. Exaggeration but wow I suck at keeping up with this blog. To be honest, I've been ... well, not busy per se, but rather preoccupied?

Last Tuesday my friends texted me and said that they're going to Toronto on the weekend to surprise Connie and that I should go too. So I spontaneously bought a bus ticket I could not afford and went to Toronto with my friends for the weekend.
We always seem to have such weird adventures together. Without going into too much detail: I had to sit next to a tall smelly guy, Ashley forgot her purse, I was the only one to get off the street car and we walked three blocks the wrong way in the dark. And this was all before we even got to Connie's house. It turned out to be a really fun weekend and even though I spent money I hardly have, I'm really glad I went. We went out the first night and the second night we had a slumber party consisting of cookies and Jersey Shore (gag me) and of course, lots of "let's talk about our feelings". I love that whenever we get together we almost forget that we hadn't seen each other for months and just pick up from where we left off.

I also found the OPI black shatter nail polish that I had been looking FOREVER for! Every store I went to it had sold out, but I finally found it at some hair salon at the Easton Centre and it was way over priced but I searched too long and hard not to buy it. It is so COOL. I'm surprising my mom by coming home this weekend (mainly because I'll be working a midnight shifts, cha-ching$$!) so I'm going to bring the nail polish home and we can try it out.

School is still stressing me out to ze max. I'm having a hard time concentrating and an even harder time waking up in the morning. I set nearly 5 alarms every morning and I wake up at noon not remembering even shutting the alarms off. It's getting bad. But at least I'm sleeping again! Granted, I'm not on a normal sleep schedule but last week and the week before I was going a couple days with zero amounts of sleep.
Oh, and have I ever mentioned I hate group projects? I hate group projects.

I want to try a detox diet when I get back home. A healthy one, of course. None of those weird grapefruit-only oe cabbage soup-only (ASHLEY...) diets. I've been looking up suggestions and tips and I'll probably try it for a week in May. We'll see how long I last. I'm not really a dry vegetable eater.

iCarly starts in a few minutes, so farewell until my next post which could be tomorrow and it could be a month from now. My memory so screwy? I have the weirdest things stored in my memory yet I can't remember what I had for dinner last night. This is why I try to write everything down.

So Sick of Winter

Poor Sean getting soaked waiting for the bus

Spring starts in just over a week, yet there is still no sign of it. Just lots and lots of snow! Have I ever mentioned I hate snow unless it's December? It is now March and this damn stuff is just not giving up! This has been the longest winter in my memory. I hope summer makes up for it.

BTW - My sleeping isn't getting better. I've looked up ways to get back on a normal sleep schedule but it's not just that anymore; I can't fall asleep although I lay in my bed for hours (literally, hours) and I can't stay asleep. I'm pretty sure I have insomnia so I've been looking up treatments for it (since I refuse to take any sort of medication because I'm usually a good sleeper) and I don't think I'll be able to fix it until I move back home next month (only one more month, can you believe it!? eek!).
I'm redoing my bedroom this summer and I plan to make it very calming colours (Tiffany blue and brown, or Tiffany blue with white and black) AND I will not do anything in my bedroom but sleep. No more crafts or surfing the internet for hours. My bedroom will only be used to sleeping, so my body will be trained and know that when I'm in my bedroom it's to sleep. I'll also be shutting off all electronics by the LATEST midnight. No more 4am iCarly episodes. I am determined to get on a normal sleep schedule. I hate sleeping till 2 and 3 in the afternoon. I want to be up before 11am everyday, including weekends.
At the moment I can't get more than 4 hours of sleep each night and it's really killing me. I'm exhausted, yet my body won't fall asleep or stay asleep. I'm going to try my hardest to sleep in tomorrow, since I tend to do my best sleeping between 6am and 4pm. I'm not even worried about my sleep schedule anymore while I'm still in London. Right now I'm just concentrating on getting any sleep at all. I'll get on a schedule when I move back home.

30 Days of Music
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral - I usually don't like to think about this sort of thing, but I guess if I were to die young I would want Life is Beautiful by Vega4, mostly because it's a little up beat but it still has a great message about life.

Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh - Not so much the song (though I do love it!), but the music video for Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland made me laugh.

SHOPPPPPING!

I'm going through shopping withdrawal. It is so hard to not have any money. I am having a field day on the Forever 21 website. I have a $50 giftcard for the website but I currently have $250 worth of stuff in my shopping bag.

There is also a couple things I want from Joe Fresh, Old Navy and Steve Madden. And a few things I have in my head but I haven't found the right one in a store/website yet.

Forever 21:






Joe Fresh:

I would post pictures but Joe Fresh doesn't allow you to shop online, booooo. But there is a white 3/4 sleeve top with blue sequin stripes, tan rain boots, and brown aviators.

Steve Madden:
I'm also looking for the perfect jean jacket. I found a nice one at Old Navy but the wash is too dark.

30 Days of Music
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad - It just all depends if I want to cheer up or if I want to cry my heart out. Although I'm gonna say Reign in Us by Starfield

Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding - I want to walk down the aisle to Somewhere Over The Rainbow by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole.