all over the place

that's how i'm feeling right now. my emotions and my clothes are all over the place. and i can't stop eating welch's fruit snacks.

i saw sisterhood of the traveling pants tonight. it was amazing - i knew it would be. the preview itself gave me goosebumps.of course it wasn't as good as the first, but it was incredible. maybe because i feel like i can relate to it?

i'm so glad i have a sisterhood. we're not so like them, but we always come back to each other. we get mad at each other but we can't seem to stay mad. we get frustrated with each other and try hanging out with other people but it's never the same as when we're together. whenever something happens, we always just want to call each other first.

and even in the second movie, they all go off to different colleges in different states, and that's what's going to happen in a year. but i know that we'll always be there for each other.
oh my gosh, i'm getting too emotional.

well, there's a few emotions i'm feeling right now; grateful, fortunate, content.

but then there is this whole other part of me that's anxious, nervous, frustrated, agitated, confused. which is a whole different story.

and THEN there a part of me that's just really upset. i almost feel betrayed, but it's more of a disappointed feeling. but i'm not even sure if i should be feeling this which just makes me confused.

that's enough adjectives for one night. usually then people would say 'i'll feel better in the morning' but this isn't the case.i know i won't. i'll wake up tomorrow morning with all these emotions still heavy on my shoulders.

and the one person i want to talk to is out of reach.