I always do this to myself
Here we go, another one of my infamous rants.
Why am I so dumb that I ALWAYS leave my homework to the very last minute?! Well, maybe it's not even me. Well, of course it's me, but not purposely. It's not like I sit here saying "I just won't do it. I'll do anything other than homework". I really don't! It's just that my subject do NOT interest me AT ALL. Why the flying fuck do I want to do a project (that was do earlier today) on digestion and each of the ingredients in these recipes track through our digestive system +some? STUPIDEST. PROJECT. EVER. But it's a lot of work so it must be worth a lot. And colleges look at midterms marks. Eff my life, of course my best subjects are second semester.
My classes don't even have to suck. It's the teacher's and the useless, mind-melting work they give us.
It's 10:30pm and I'm hardly half way done this project that I really do not have any motivation in finishing.
School aside, I AM IN SUCH A SLUMP. I don't even know if that's a real word, but it seems to really fit my situation well.
Especially after watching Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist (which was awesome by the way! and I'm loving the soundtrack.) I've just been so.. depressed. But, not really depressed. Maybe like half depressed and half hopeless.
I want a boy like Michael Cera. Where are all the good guys hiding?!
In my now 3 years and 2 months of high school, I have not met one guy I find dateable.
And pressure from my mom is really helping. She always says how I'm 17 and never been kissed (false, by the way.) and asks when I'm going to have a boyfriend, or who my prom date will be, or who the cute boys in my class are.
STFU.
I'm just so sick of it. All the shallow mildly good-looking guys hooking up with the airhead "hot" girls. But whatever, I don't want a shallow guy anyways. But lately, it just seems like every guy I know is so shallow.
I want a nice guy. A nice guy I can be myself around. A nice guy who takes it slow and respects my views on relationships. A nice guy who my friend's will like too. A nice guy who has the same sense of humour as me and doesn't act differently in front of his friends. Just a nice guy I click with.
I mean, I'm almost 18 years old and never had an actual relationship. I feel like I'm missing out or something. My mom is always talking about all these old boy friends and how her and my dad first started dating when she was 16 and he was 15 (and they broke up like a million times and got back together like a million times).
Like, we'll be driving in my my neighborhood (where she also grew up) and she'll point to some random walking down the street and go "I dated that guy once." I'm started to think my mom was either a hussy or she keeps thinking all these different guys are the same person.
So, awesome guy, I'm ready for you to come find me already.
Just to ruin the mood even more than I already have, for Jonas Brothers fans, have you read their latest blog? Aw, the ending was so nice wasn't it?
Thanks for being so amazing. To our fans in the Us that have been there from the beginning.
WHAT. THE. EFF.
Way to always leave out your CANADIAN FANS. News flash, fans from the beginning aren't only in the US! I've put so much effort, time, and MONEY into these guys the last 3 years of my life and I always just feel so unnoticed.
I'm proud of them, blah blah, but,
I'M TIRED OF THEM BEING SO FAMOUS.
It's not even fun to be a fan anymore! And Jonas Fever seems more like a full-time job /competition than a fun past time.
I love the site, I really do! And I have no intention is closing the longest running Jonas Brothers fansite because that's exactly what I want it to be, the longest running Jonas Brothers fansite.
When all those other fansites close because they've lost interest in either the site or the Jonas Brothers, I want Jonas Fever to still be there for them.
But honestly, I have a life! I don't have time to keep up with my own life and the lives of three guys who can hardly keep up with their own.
The fame was fun at first, and I don't want to sound negative or anything, but I'm ready for them to start coming back down to playing shows that didn't sell out in 10 seconds and tickets didn't cost over $100 for nosebleed section.
Screw their tv show. Screw Camp Rock 2. Screw Jonas Brothers.
Why am I so dumb that I ALWAYS leave my homework to the very last minute?! Well, maybe it's not even me. Well, of course it's me, but not purposely. It's not like I sit here saying "I just won't do it. I'll do anything other than homework". I really don't! It's just that my subject do NOT interest me AT ALL. Why the flying fuck do I want to do a project (that was do earlier today) on digestion and each of the ingredients in these recipes track through our digestive system +some? STUPIDEST. PROJECT. EVER. But it's a lot of work so it must be worth a lot. And colleges look at midterms marks. Eff my life, of course my best subjects are second semester.
My classes don't even have to suck. It's the teacher's and the useless, mind-melting work they give us.
It's 10:30pm and I'm hardly half way done this project that I really do not have any motivation in finishing.
School aside, I AM IN SUCH A SLUMP. I don't even know if that's a real word, but it seems to really fit my situation well.
Especially after watching Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist (which was awesome by the way! and I'm loving the soundtrack.) I've just been so.. depressed. But, not really depressed. Maybe like half depressed and half hopeless.
I want a boy like Michael Cera. Where are all the good guys hiding?!
In my now 3 years and 2 months of high school, I have not met one guy I find dateable.
And pressure from my mom is really helping. She always says how I'm 17 and never been kissed (false, by the way.) and asks when I'm going to have a boyfriend, or who my prom date will be, or who the cute boys in my class are.
STFU.
I'm just so sick of it. All the shallow mildly good-looking guys hooking up with the airhead "hot" girls. But whatever, I don't want a shallow guy anyways. But lately, it just seems like every guy I know is so shallow.
I want a nice guy. A nice guy I can be myself around. A nice guy who takes it slow and respects my views on relationships. A nice guy who my friend's will like too. A nice guy who has the same sense of humour as me and doesn't act differently in front of his friends. Just a nice guy I click with.
I mean, I'm almost 18 years old and never had an actual relationship. I feel like I'm missing out or something. My mom is always talking about all these old boy friends and how her and my dad first started dating when she was 16 and he was 15 (and they broke up like a million times and got back together like a million times).
Like, we'll be driving in my my neighborhood (where she also grew up) and she'll point to some random walking down the street and go "I dated that guy once." I'm started to think my mom was either a hussy or she keeps thinking all these different guys are the same person.
So, awesome guy, I'm ready for you to come find me already.
Just to ruin the mood even more than I already have, for Jonas Brothers fans, have you read their latest blog? Aw, the ending was so nice wasn't it?
Thanks for being so amazing. To our fans in the Us that have been there from the beginning.
WHAT. THE. EFF.
Way to always leave out your CANADIAN FANS. News flash, fans from the beginning aren't only in the US! I've put so much effort, time, and MONEY into these guys the last 3 years of my life and I always just feel so unnoticed.
I'm proud of them, blah blah, but,
I'M TIRED OF THEM BEING SO FAMOUS.
It's not even fun to be a fan anymore! And Jonas Fever seems more like a full-time job /competition than a fun past time.
I love the site, I really do! And I have no intention is closing the longest running Jonas Brothers fansite because that's exactly what I want it to be, the longest running Jonas Brothers fansite.
When all those other fansites close because they've lost interest in either the site or the Jonas Brothers, I want Jonas Fever to still be there for them.
But honestly, I have a life! I don't have time to keep up with my own life and the lives of three guys who can hardly keep up with their own.
The fame was fun at first, and I don't want to sound negative or anything, but I'm ready for them to start coming back down to playing shows that didn't sell out in 10 seconds and tickets didn't cost over $100 for nosebleed section.
Screw their tv show. Screw Camp Rock 2. Screw Jonas Brothers.
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2 comments:
I'm so sorry you're having a hard time :(
Just know that no matter what ever happens, Life is going to be okay.
I got this quote book today, and I particularly liked this one.
"Live all you can; it's a mistake not to. It doesn't so much matter what you do in particular, so long as you have your life. If you haven't had that what have you had?...What one loses one loses; make no mistake about that... The right time is any time that one is still so lucky as to have...Live!"-Henry James
I feel like I'm in a rut too, but that won't last forever. Just keep moving forward, one foot at a time.
Luckily my Mom isn't like that about boys, but I completely understand with the whole, 'all boys suck' thing. But you know, alot of people date 59839895964 people who all happen to be jerks. Just wait. As long as you truly want it to happen, it will happen eventually.
On the whole jonas thing... I can't exactly relate as well as you probably can, since I didn't really LOVE them until late 2006/early 2007, but I'm hurting too. I could go on and on about everything I miss, and how I wish they'd realize what we go through just BEING a fan. We're put into this stupid label which I can't stand.
They're changed, even if they won't admit it. They have. No necessarily in a bad way, but just... a change. I'm visiting a friend at the moment, and we were talking yesterday about how, yeah, they've changed. I hate admitting that... because I really have never been a fan of change.
Honestly, I don't think its going to die down anytime soon. Maybe for a little while until the show comes out, but then its going to go back full force.
I don't feel needed by them anymore. But... I still need them. They can keep changing as much as they want, but I love those jonas boys more then I love alot of things. They upset me, but just think of all the times they HAVE helped you. They really helped me when I had no one else, and that is probably the reason I'm still a fan.
Wow I totally just started talking about me... I'm sorry. And I'm so proud of you for sticking with your site.
Listen... I know people always say, "if you ever need anyone, you can talk to me!" Believe me, I get it alot, and I know alot of times people just say it to say it, but really. ANYTIME you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I think you are a wonderful person and you should be so proud of who you are.
Again, don't be afraid to talk to me if you need someone to listen, or even if you just want to talk. I mean it.
Oh! and about the Canada thing, I didn't even realize that when I read it. I'm really sorry :( they weren't thinking, but that still is totally stupid of them.
i agree with everything hannah wrote.
school sucks. thank God we only have to put up with one more year of it.
college won't be as bad, i promise.
more freedom, more flexibility, and more funtime. =P
jonas... no comment. i don't need to comment on that, because you already know exactly what i'm going to say.
it may sound cruel and un-fan-ish, but i'm really hoping the tv show blows and gets cancelled... it's not like they need more success and money. they could stop everything right now and be set for the rest of their lives.
i know they won't do that though, they'll never stop.
even when disney uses them up until they're exhausted and a major annoyance to the media...
they'll still be there, doing something. anything.
and you can bet all the toonies in the world that we'll be there. cheering them on and supporting them just like we always have.
"but i'll be there forever,
you will see that it's better,
all our hopes and our dreams will come true.
i will not disappoint you,
i will be right there for you,
until the end, the end of time."
ilyplJ.<333 forever.[;
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