one day she may change the world: Real reason I hate my birthday?

Some people don't know what it feels like to lose someone close to you. For those of us you have been through the unyielding experience, we know how awful and rough that time can be. And even though that person is gone, you will always still care about them and miss them tremendously.

Losing someone you love a lot is hard, losing them a day before your birthday is even harder.

She died from an extremely rare, extremely fatal, disease called Creutzfeld-Jakob disease. The actual chances of getting Creutzfeld-Jakob disease is one in a million per year. ONE IN A MILLION! People have a better chance of winning the lottery than getting this disease.

She was active and healthy and everyone predicted she'd out-live all of her siblings. Kind of ironic that she didn't out-live any of them.

I miss everything about her, quirky traits and all. Her dying wasn't the hardest, though. Watching her slowly fade away was.

She was the relative I was closest too. She lived in our house for close to 10 years. She was my babysitter when my parents went to work when I was younger. She always had candy and she never bought movies, she taped them for me and decorated the covers with magazine clippings. She was hilarious but she didn't try to be. She was gullible and it took her forever to get a joke.
Most grandma's say all their grandchildren are their favourite, but she told me straight-up she liked me best. I was her favourite granddaughter and she was my only grandmother (my dad's mom died before I was born).
We're a lot alike in many ways. Like how she not only kept everything, but hated to get rid of anything. And how she wrote everything down to remember. And we both have an unhealthy addiction to ice cream.

I've been trying to make my birthday awesome and enjoyable. Maybe trying too hard because my relationship with my friends is a bit awkward right now. But I have a feeling it's been awkward and we're slowly drifting from each other and now I'm finally noticing because this is the first time in a long time I've tried to get close with them.