Who Let's Me Make Impulse Decisions?

Just doing some late-night pondering about why I ever decided to go to a brand new city to go to school.

Here are some reasons I should have taken into consideration when deciding to move:

1. I don't even like leaving the house. I've been here for over 4 months and I've gone out with friends ONCE and I was even reluctant to that. I've lived in the same house my whole life and I preferred to to stay in this house most of the time. What made me think I'd like to leave it now? And in a house that is not mine and I don't feel comfortable living in.

2. I don't have a car. Living at home I can drive my mom's car whenever I want, and Sean can drive his parent's car whenever he wants. Here? I have the privilege of riding the bus. I'm grateful I got a free bus pass but there is not an transportation I hate more than the bus - Greyhound included.
Reason 2.5 - I have to pay to go home on the weekends because I don't have a car.

3. I have to pay to leave here. If I were home, I would be saving myself $3600 just in rent money. On top of that, I have to pay for groceries, which I have never had to do in my entire life. And damn, they're expensive.

4. My mom doesn't live here. My whole life there is no one I've been closer to than my mom. I go to her for advice, mostly fashion, and she keeps me company when I prefer to be alone (if that makes sense to anyone??).

5. I had no reason to live. I like my hometown. All of my family and friends live there. No one I know lives in London. I was not looking for a clean start or to get away. I just wanted the experience of living away from home. Ok, I've had it, I'm ready to move back home now!

Well, I'll be done here by this time next year. I hope I can finish this schooling up before I have a meltdown and move back home. Although, all the money I've already put into it, I'll most likely suck it up and graduate from here. I can't wait to be done, though.